My mailman brought me a box of shiny beads today. They were sent by a friend who went to Gasparilla in Tampa. Gasparilla seems to be a pirate themed Mardi Gras held the weekend before Super Bowl.
I am bedazzled by them. (Shiny things, you know!) The boyfriend expressed great enthusiasm when I told him about them. We play “pirates” and finally have some cool props to add to the fun. I don’t recall how we got started with “pirates”. I think one day we were watching a pirate documentary on TV and started “talking” pirate and made up pirate names and this lead to various scenarios and well, the rest is part of the history of us. We also occasionally act like Greek warrior/Greek maiden (here we take great historical liberties). We have an incredibly playful relationship. Far more so than any past relationship of mine, and, I believe, his. I can’t really explain why. Because he is younger? I don’t think so. He relaxed into playfulness but did not really initiate it. He loves it though. Because I did not think this would last long and so decided to just have fun and not worry about the impression I was making? Maybe, but I don’t think it is that either.
What I really think it is, is this. Prior to meeting him I had been dateless for 4 years and sexless for almost 7. (Take a moment to gasp in shock and dismay). I just lost all interest in making any more efforts. As a friend would say, “Different day, same disappointments.” Then I met him. And despite my insecurity about my weight and fears that I would forget how to “do it”, he made me so comfortable and made it so easy to just be who I am, that it all flowed from there.
He himself could be a nude model in a figure drawing class. I am more, in art terms, reubenesque. And he never makes me feel badly about it. In fact he makes me feel wonderful. There are a couple of problems, of course, which I may get into in a future post. They are not insurmountable nor permanent. I hope. Just, you know, stuff like everyone else.
And I know that we will relish our box o’ beads and the genuine fun and pleasure we share.
tampa is knowen for it’s beads at gasparilla. Also have a large store that deals with beads for making jewelry. check them out at http://www.iBead.com
Comment by costabraziltour — February 14, 2008 @ 8:41 pm
(Gasp) and (Dismay) I thought I was the only person in the world that went through such droughts.
Glad they are behind ya thar matey!
Comment by joeflirt — February 15, 2008 @ 4:32 pm